I Miss.....

I MISS MY GIRLS. I miss spending time with Emily. We used to spend more time together, but since her life changed and my job changed, we just don't spend much time together anymore. I miss that she used to live so close, now she lives 15 minutes away and sometimes that feels like 15 hours. I miss Jessica. I haven't seen her in a year because I had to wait a whole year to get vacation time. Talking to her on the phone is good, but spending time with her is the best.

I MISS MY GRAND KIDS. I used to see the grand kids frequently because they lived closer to me. I don't see them as much now since they moved. I am so looking forward to seeing them this Saturday. In one month from today I get to see my granddaughter, Caroline and I can hardly wait. If I had my way, we would all live in the same neighborhood and I would see them all the time.

I MISS HAVING A MAN IN MY LIFE. For just a little while there I thought it was finally going to work out for me, but no, just another let down. I miss having someone care about me, someone to hug and kiss. Maybe it's time to try again, but I feel like I have to wait until I become better, thinner, more tan, more together. I am going to try again, I think I just have to 'go for it' and be prepared to kiss a lot of frogs once again.

I'm Blessed

There are days when I get discouraged and down and feel like life is too hard and then I stop and think. I have so much to be thankful for. Almost a year ago I got a new job, one that allowed me to move into a place of my own. There hasn't been one day that I haven't walked around my apartment and been so happy to have my little place. It isn't a mansion, and it's not the fanciest place, but I just love my little place. I just switched my bedroom and crop room and I am so happy with the results. It's nice to have such a sweet crop space.

The thing I am most thankful for how ever is my grand kids. They are a huge blessing in my world. Sometimes Jessica and Emily send me videos of the kids and it makes my day. I hear the little ones laughing and it makes me laugh too. I also love to hear my 'little girls' (Jessica and Emily) laughing along with their kids in the videos. Emily sent a video the other day of Vivian. It was the sweetest video. I laughed so hard I cried. I know anytime I get depressed all I have to do is watch this video, and my mood will be instantly lifted. Here is the link to the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OuYUdHbxt0

Grandkids

I'm getting ready to go and see Emily's little ones. I can't wait. I haven't seen them in awhile and I miss them so much. We are celebrating Easter this weekend since they will be gone next weekend. We'll be hiding eggs and dying eggs. This is going to be so much fun. I'll add photos later of all the fun!

Good Grief Charlie Brown

It's been one of those days......

Yesterday I read an article online that said not getting enough sleep makes you gain weight. Great, I haven't had more than 5 hours of sleep a night for months. So today I decided I would go to bed early.....ahh the best laid plans of mice and man!

Mondays are always busy at work and today was no exception. I can honestly say I wish every day was as busy as Mondays. I like being busy, it makes the days go by so much faster. ( By the way one of the girls in the office got mad at me today and told me she wasn't talking to me anymore....can we say junior high????)

On Mondays I go to see my Mom directly after work and today I also had to stop at Kroger to get food to cook for tomorrows carry-in at work. I got home about 9:30 and race to the bathroom only to realize my carpet in the hallway felt mushy when I walked on it. Imagine my surprise when I noticed the carpet was soaked, and the laundry room was flooded...why do you ask?...the water heater busted. So much for that great plan to go to bed early so I could be skinny. So I cooked my food for tomorrow and spent the rest of the evening trying to clean up the water mess.

So my big plans for tomorrow are to go to work and be happy no matter how anyone else acts, go to Beef O' Brady's and drink green beer, go home and vacuum the water out of the carpet and be in bed by 10 so I can start to be the wonderful skinny person that is dying to get out!

Wish There Was a Manual

I wish there was a manual for life, somewhere I could look up all the answers to life's questions. I am dating a great guy, buy my mind is full of questions. I'm not sure where the questions are coming from. Things seemed to be going great for a while and then I woke up one day and was struck by confusion. Something is nagging me and I can't put a finger on what it is. Am I so afraid to make another mistake I am sabotaging my own love life or is my gut telling me something? Time will tell, I just hope I don't screw anything up for myself.

Yay! No Fever!

Well for the first day in a week I am finally feeling more like myself again. I came down suddenly with a high fever last Sunday and have been struggling all week. I have no sick days, so I had to go to work each day despite how I felt. It was a long week. I had big plans for the weekend, but I missed it all.

I was supposed to go to the Melting Pot for Valerie's birthday Friday night, but I was still running a fever and too sick. I felt so sad to miss her birthday and all the yummy fun. Then on Saturday I was supposed to go to the Mardi Gras crop at Live Love Scrap, but I missed that too. I was so excited, I had my mask all ready and I was so looking forward to hanging out with my friends. Still had a fever yesterday, so cropping just couldn't happen. Instead I spent Friday night and all day Saturday in bed trying to get well.

Looks like it did me good, I do feel better today. I guess I have a lot of fun to make up...I think I'll start out slow!

A Little Bit Confused

I've had a lot going on in my life lately causing me to think far too much. It's been a roller coaster of emotions. A million questions are swirling thru my mind but no answers. I guess I'll go to bed tonight and solve all lifes problems tomorrow.

TTFN