Trip to Michigan

I am leaving Wednesday for a trip to Michigan with Terry, his son, daughter-in-law and 4 grand kids. I am so excited I'm having a hard time sitting still and staying focused. This is something I have always wanted to do... go to a big ol' house and hang out with family. Even though I am not technically a part of Terry's family, they sure make me feel like I'm one of them. Sweet, genuine people.

We are going to go to the beach (Port Huron), play games, eat a lot and drink beer...just a relaxing vacation. I'm heading over to Terry's tomorrow night after work, it will be our only 'alone' time for 6 days so I'm going to enjoy it. Actually, I enjoy every moment I have with him...alone or not! In case you haven't realized it yet, I am pretty smitten with this guy. He is one special man. The feelings I have for him are new to me and very welcome, but also a little scary. This relationship is like Christmas, full of happiness, warm feelings, excitement and anticipation. .........sigh...........

Smitten

Okay I had my first 'sleepover' at Terry's house. I think I am smitten through and through. He is absolutely amazing and I like him more and more everyday. He tells me he feels the same way. I know those of you that know my 'love life' or lack thereof are probably sick of all my ups and downs. This time I feel completely different. I know no one will believe that, but it's true. I haven't felt like this ever before. I feel so comfortable around him, it's almost like we have been together for a really long time. I can't wait for him to meet my family and friends. I want to share with them just how happy I am with him.

Happiness

I have met an amazing man. His name is Terry and he makes me really happy. Things are going really well and I think they will just get better! Wish me luck!

Roller Coaster Ride

Two months ago I have jumped back into the dating pool after having ended a 4 month relationship. At first it seemed like a positive thing to do, searching online for 'Mr. Right'. Now, I'm not so sure. Being 52 years old and dating is not for the weak at heart. It takes strength and determination. It's only been two months, but I can feel myself getting weaker by the day. It's a roller coaster of emotions on a daily basis. 'He' calls and I get so excited, aglow with anticipation. But reality hits when 'he' stands me up for a date. This has happened 3 times in the last couple of weeks. Then I finally have a date with a new guy that I'm not stood up for...yay! It goes remarkably well and then....cue music...dun, dun, dun...I don't hear from him for 4 days. Arrgghhh!!!! A huge part of me is thinking of giving it up all together. I'm sure some of my friends would prefer that, as I'm sure they are tired of the moaning and groaning I've done lately. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I guess I'll take it one day at a time and try to stop worrying about it. (easier said than done!)

Vacation

Yeah! In two days I'm leaving for Colorado to see my daughter and her family. I haven't seen them in a year and I am super excited to give my grandaughter Caroline lots of love. I love traveling. I love to fly and I even love to sit in airports and watch people. Not only do I get to see my daughter, but she just moved into her new house and I get to see it! Yeah!

It will be so nice to get away and get my mind off things and just relax. I'll post pictures when I get back.

I Miss.....

I MISS MY GIRLS. I miss spending time with Emily. We used to spend more time together, but since her life changed and my job changed, we just don't spend much time together anymore. I miss that she used to live so close, now she lives 15 minutes away and sometimes that feels like 15 hours. I miss Jessica. I haven't seen her in a year because I had to wait a whole year to get vacation time. Talking to her on the phone is good, but spending time with her is the best.

I MISS MY GRAND KIDS. I used to see the grand kids frequently because they lived closer to me. I don't see them as much now since they moved. I am so looking forward to seeing them this Saturday. In one month from today I get to see my granddaughter, Caroline and I can hardly wait. If I had my way, we would all live in the same neighborhood and I would see them all the time.

I MISS HAVING A MAN IN MY LIFE. For just a little while there I thought it was finally going to work out for me, but no, just another let down. I miss having someone care about me, someone to hug and kiss. Maybe it's time to try again, but I feel like I have to wait until I become better, thinner, more tan, more together. I am going to try again, I think I just have to 'go for it' and be prepared to kiss a lot of frogs once again.

I'm Blessed

There are days when I get discouraged and down and feel like life is too hard and then I stop and think. I have so much to be thankful for. Almost a year ago I got a new job, one that allowed me to move into a place of my own. There hasn't been one day that I haven't walked around my apartment and been so happy to have my little place. It isn't a mansion, and it's not the fanciest place, but I just love my little place. I just switched my bedroom and crop room and I am so happy with the results. It's nice to have such a sweet crop space.

The thing I am most thankful for how ever is my grand kids. They are a huge blessing in my world. Sometimes Jessica and Emily send me videos of the kids and it makes my day. I hear the little ones laughing and it makes me laugh too. I also love to hear my 'little girls' (Jessica and Emily) laughing along with their kids in the videos. Emily sent a video the other day of Vivian. It was the sweetest video. I laughed so hard I cried. I know anytime I get depressed all I have to do is watch this video, and my mood will be instantly lifted. Here is the link to the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OuYUdHbxt0