Hope

I feel a new hope in my life.

I think despite the heartache of not hearing one word from Terry, I know this will work out for the best for me. Things happen for a reason and even though I don't know the reason right away, in time I think I will understand. I think God has something better for me, either a new man or no one. Either way as long as I trust the Lord I think it will all work out for the best for me. I'm going to a class at The Vineyard that I know is just what I need. I am really learning a lot about who I am and what I really need in my life. So keep me in your prayers that I can remain hopeful and keep smiling on the inside and the outside!

Learning, Learning, Learning

They say you can't teach an old dog new tricks. Well maybe this 'old dog' can learn some new tricks. Each day I learn lessons, some welcome, some not so welcome.

Recently I've learned to:
1. listen to my heart
2. go slower, a lot slower
3. not to put my entire world in one basket
4. not to wear my heart on my sleeve
5. keep things to myself

A side note to all my friends who I have made crazy talking about my love life (and my problems), you can relax now, I'll try and just be me from now on.

Trip to Michigan

I am leaving Wednesday for a trip to Michigan with Terry, his son, daughter-in-law and 4 grand kids. I am so excited I'm having a hard time sitting still and staying focused. This is something I have always wanted to do... go to a big ol' house and hang out with family. Even though I am not technically a part of Terry's family, they sure make me feel like I'm one of them. Sweet, genuine people.

We are going to go to the beach (Port Huron), play games, eat a lot and drink beer...just a relaxing vacation. I'm heading over to Terry's tomorrow night after work, it will be our only 'alone' time for 6 days so I'm going to enjoy it. Actually, I enjoy every moment I have with him...alone or not! In case you haven't realized it yet, I am pretty smitten with this guy. He is one special man. The feelings I have for him are new to me and very welcome, but also a little scary. This relationship is like Christmas, full of happiness, warm feelings, excitement and anticipation. .........sigh...........

Smitten

Okay I had my first 'sleepover' at Terry's house. I think I am smitten through and through. He is absolutely amazing and I like him more and more everyday. He tells me he feels the same way. I know those of you that know my 'love life' or lack thereof are probably sick of all my ups and downs. This time I feel completely different. I know no one will believe that, but it's true. I haven't felt like this ever before. I feel so comfortable around him, it's almost like we have been together for a really long time. I can't wait for him to meet my family and friends. I want to share with them just how happy I am with him.

Happiness

I have met an amazing man. His name is Terry and he makes me really happy. Things are going really well and I think they will just get better! Wish me luck!

Roller Coaster Ride

Two months ago I have jumped back into the dating pool after having ended a 4 month relationship. At first it seemed like a positive thing to do, searching online for 'Mr. Right'. Now, I'm not so sure. Being 52 years old and dating is not for the weak at heart. It takes strength and determination. It's only been two months, but I can feel myself getting weaker by the day. It's a roller coaster of emotions on a daily basis. 'He' calls and I get so excited, aglow with anticipation. But reality hits when 'he' stands me up for a date. This has happened 3 times in the last couple of weeks. Then I finally have a date with a new guy that I'm not stood up for...yay! It goes remarkably well and then....cue music...dun, dun, dun...I don't hear from him for 4 days. Arrgghhh!!!! A huge part of me is thinking of giving it up all together. I'm sure some of my friends would prefer that, as I'm sure they are tired of the moaning and groaning I've done lately. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I guess I'll take it one day at a time and try to stop worrying about it. (easier said than done!)

Vacation

Yeah! In two days I'm leaving for Colorado to see my daughter and her family. I haven't seen them in a year and I am super excited to give my grandaughter Caroline lots of love. I love traveling. I love to fly and I even love to sit in airports and watch people. Not only do I get to see my daughter, but she just moved into her new house and I get to see it! Yeah!

It will be so nice to get away and get my mind off things and just relax. I'll post pictures when I get back.