Finally

Whew, after dealing with the winter weather I finally got moved in to Terry's house (which he sweetly refers to as 'our house'). I spent all that time packing and now I'm spending a lot of time un-packing. I have to say the un-packing is much easier. I have most of my boxes unpacked except for those last few boxes that have all the random things I can't live without, yet I'm not quite sure what to do with.

This is the first time I have 'moved in' with someone else and it has been interesting trying to meld two peoples lives together. Terry has been gracious with his 'space' and so far all my things seem to be fitting quite nicely with his. He likes 'modern' things and I like 'vintage' things, so our decor may be a bit different! Probably in about a month I will be completely settled and I will take pictures to post here.

I do have to say, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God for sending him to me. I am so happy with him and feel incredibly blessed to be part of his life.

Boxes, Boxes and More Boxes

I am moving and I am so excited to begin this new adventure in my life. Even though I am surrounded by boxes I am beside myself with joy. I have been spending most of my time this last couple of weeks (when I'm not at work) sorting and deciding what to pack, what to give away and what to put in storage. At times it is daunting, but I take it one spot at a time and that seems to help. When I get all moved and settle in, I will try and post some pictures of my new home.

Christmas Time

This year Christmas was probably the best Christmas I've had since 2000. I love Christmas, the time with family and friends, the lights, the smells, the sounds. But since I lost Paul (my son) in 2001, Christmas has been hard to get through. Each year I become more used to dealing with his absence, but always in the back of my mind he is there, in the quiet moments, my heart breaks and the tears flow. I wish that Paul could have been with us all this year. I would love for him to meet all his nieces, I know he would love to be around them. I wish he could meet Terry and see how happy Terry makes me.

This year was easier for me. I spent Christmas Eve with Terry and woke up Christmas morning with him and it was the sweetest time. Just being with Terry made me feel good and warm and wonderful. I can't explain in words just how wonderful this year was, having Terry to share it with. I am so thankful to have him in my world.

It's Nice When It's a Yes

I pray a lot and I know God answers prayers. But it is really nice this time that it was answered with a 'yes'. I know sometimes God answers with a 'no' and that eventually I realize that 'no' was the best answer for my life. But when it's a 'yes' and I've been waiting a long time, then is so much sweeter.

Hope

I feel a new hope in my life.

I think despite the heartache of not hearing one word from Terry, I know this will work out for the best for me. Things happen for a reason and even though I don't know the reason right away, in time I think I will understand. I think God has something better for me, either a new man or no one. Either way as long as I trust the Lord I think it will all work out for the best for me. I'm going to a class at The Vineyard that I know is just what I need. I am really learning a lot about who I am and what I really need in my life. So keep me in your prayers that I can remain hopeful and keep smiling on the inside and the outside!

Learning, Learning, Learning

They say you can't teach an old dog new tricks. Well maybe this 'old dog' can learn some new tricks. Each day I learn lessons, some welcome, some not so welcome.

Recently I've learned to:
1. listen to my heart
2. go slower, a lot slower
3. not to put my entire world in one basket
4. not to wear my heart on my sleeve
5. keep things to myself

A side note to all my friends who I have made crazy talking about my love life (and my problems), you can relax now, I'll try and just be me from now on.

Trip to Michigan

I am leaving Wednesday for a trip to Michigan with Terry, his son, daughter-in-law and 4 grand kids. I am so excited I'm having a hard time sitting still and staying focused. This is something I have always wanted to do... go to a big ol' house and hang out with family. Even though I am not technically a part of Terry's family, they sure make me feel like I'm one of them. Sweet, genuine people.

We are going to go to the beach (Port Huron), play games, eat a lot and drink beer...just a relaxing vacation. I'm heading over to Terry's tomorrow night after work, it will be our only 'alone' time for 6 days so I'm going to enjoy it. Actually, I enjoy every moment I have with him...alone or not! In case you haven't realized it yet, I am pretty smitten with this guy. He is one special man. The feelings I have for him are new to me and very welcome, but also a little scary. This relationship is like Christmas, full of happiness, warm feelings, excitement and anticipation. .........sigh...........