It's Nice When It's a Yes

I pray a lot and I know God answers prayers. But it is really nice this time that it was answered with a 'yes'. I know sometimes God answers with a 'no' and that eventually I realize that 'no' was the best answer for my life. But when it's a 'yes' and I've been waiting a long time, then is so much sweeter.

Hope

I feel a new hope in my life.

I think despite the heartache of not hearing one word from Terry, I know this will work out for the best for me. Things happen for a reason and even though I don't know the reason right away, in time I think I will understand. I think God has something better for me, either a new man or no one. Either way as long as I trust the Lord I think it will all work out for the best for me. I'm going to a class at The Vineyard that I know is just what I need. I am really learning a lot about who I am and what I really need in my life. So keep me in your prayers that I can remain hopeful and keep smiling on the inside and the outside!

Learning, Learning, Learning

They say you can't teach an old dog new tricks. Well maybe this 'old dog' can learn some new tricks. Each day I learn lessons, some welcome, some not so welcome.

Recently I've learned to:
1. listen to my heart
2. go slower, a lot slower
3. not to put my entire world in one basket
4. not to wear my heart on my sleeve
5. keep things to myself

A side note to all my friends who I have made crazy talking about my love life (and my problems), you can relax now, I'll try and just be me from now on.

Life Goes On

You sucked me in and played my mind
Just like a toy
you would crank and wind
Baby, I would give til you wore it out
You left me lying in a pool of doubt
If you’re still thinking you’re the daddy mac
You should’ve known better but you didn’t and I can’t go back

Oooh, life goes on, and it’s only gonna make me strong
It’s a fact, once you get on board say goodbye ‘cuz you can’t go back
Oooh, its a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I’m at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I can’t go back

Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...

Wish I knew then what I know now
You held all the cards and sold me out
Baby, shame on you if you fooled me once,
Shame on me if you fooled me twice
You’ve been a pretty hard case to crack
I should’ve known better but I didn’t and I can’t go back

Life goes on, life goes on, life goes on...

Trip to Michigan

I am leaving Wednesday for a trip to Michigan with Terry, his son, daughter-in-law and 4 grand kids. I am so excited I'm having a hard time sitting still and staying focused. This is something I have always wanted to do... go to a big ol' house and hang out with family. Even though I am not technically a part of Terry's family, they sure make me feel like I'm one of them. Sweet, genuine people.

We are going to go to the beach (Port Huron), play games, eat a lot and drink beer...just a relaxing vacation. I'm heading over to Terry's tomorrow night after work, it will be our only 'alone' time for 6 days so I'm going to enjoy it. Actually, I enjoy every moment I have with him...alone or not! In case you haven't realized it yet, I am pretty smitten with this guy. He is one special man. The feelings I have for him are new to me and very welcome, but also a little scary. This relationship is like Christmas, full of happiness, warm feelings, excitement and anticipation. .........sigh...........

Smitten

Okay I had my first 'sleepover' at Terry's house. I think I am smitten through and through. He is absolutely amazing and I like him more and more everyday. He tells me he feels the same way. I know those of you that know my 'love life' or lack thereof are probably sick of all my ups and downs. This time I feel completely different. I know no one will believe that, but it's true. I haven't felt like this ever before. I feel so comfortable around him, it's almost like we have been together for a really long time. I can't wait for him to meet my family and friends. I want to share with them just how happy I am with him.

Happiness

I have met an amazing man. His name is Terry and he makes me really happy. Things are going really well and I think they will just get better! Wish me luck!